Neu·rot·ic. n(y)o͝oˈrädik: adjective.

I’m very grateful for the people I have in my life, in all their many places, and capacities. I seem to have a unusually high volume of adopted families in my life, paired with an unusually large immediate family. Somehow, even with being an introvert I have hundreds of people in my life. I do […]

Twenty-three;

Twenty-three. Twenty-three is where I find myself. Alone. Homeless. Wandering. Experimenting. Aimless. Arrogant & humbled. Reliant. Confused. Emotionally unaware. Hypersensitive. And on and on it goes. Twenty-three hit me like a rogue train, jumping the tracks and shoving me into uncertainty. I used to have motivation, direction, dreams. Now I’m just an unhoused vagabond. Bobbing […]

Reckless Adoration;

You look so intensely at me your eyes brimming with loving words and affirmations. Yet you treat me so harshly, your actions flooded with misguided weaponry. You act with little regard for my life or my heart all the while your eyes are shrieking their longing adoration. Your lips pulled tight and tense over your […]

Physical heart; figurative heart

I’ve been thinking a lot of the parallelism between the physical heart and the figurative heart. Our physical hearts are enclosed in a double-walled sac for protection, to anchor its surrounding structures and prevent blood from overfilling it. When we first meet people our figurative hearts are completely covered, “which protects the heart from any […]

“I’ll see you next week.”

“My hope, my home, my calling is in a heavenly country looking upward and forwards, longing to bring glory to my God, my Father whom is not ashamed to call me daughter. Seeking to serve Him in this world and the next, to spread His words, His hope, His love. He has put eternity in […]

The Captain & the First Mate

my most prominent, omnipresent trial of a hollow muscular blood-pumping organ three sizes too large for the cavern it inhabits the body, the person, the living breathing organism of human origin ill-equipped for such a raucous muscle the rhythm of rapidity increasing with every introduction of concern compassion beating intensely in the cramped cavity always threatening to […]