Dictated Contradictions;

You know when you wake up and all your friends live somewhere else and you realize that you’re all alone because you’ve said no to every boy you can remember, except for the ones who said no to you, and you find yourself wondering if maybe you should’ve been more? More something, sometime… to someone, […]

From a file of numerically titled entries;

She’s a slob, a vagrant, a nameless wanderer, drifting in and out like so many chapters in a dream, occasionally a nightmare. She’s been aimless for so long, she’s forgotten if she ever had a purpose. Erratic and fickle, she’s a wayward soul, grasping for meaning, wishing she had one inkling where she was. Someone […]

These eyes;

The older I get the more I learn that I know nothing. Sure, I’m a know-it-all with a penchant for odd, and surprisingly useless facts, but still, I’m clueless as they come. I have so much time in my day and sometimes I know how to put every single second to good use, ultimately benefitting, […]

Neu·rot·ic. n(y)o͝oˈrädik: adjective.

I’m very grateful for the people I have in my life, in all their many places, and capacities. I seem to have a unusually high volume of adopted families in my life, paired with an unusually large immediate family. Somehow, even with being an introvert I have hundreds of people in my life. I do […]

Writer;

I could never become a writer because the things I would write about would be true; they would be about all of you. I would dramatize & elaborately describe our lives; as seen through my very own eyes. These memories drift through my head all day, but I am constantly shoving them away. If only […]

Cynicism at it’s finest;

Every now and then I have this epiphany that I’m pretty dark & emotional as the world would describe it; really I am just deeply introspective & I am a realist, I say things how they are. That scares people. It frightens them and makes them awkward, not many people know what to do when […]

Ordering your morning brew;

Allow me to enlighten you as to what it’s like waking up at 3 am every day and rushing off to open the only Java Temple in the terminal. Let me just tell you about the angry masses of ill-mannered adults I encounter on a daily basis. Let me express to you the surges and […]

“Ask me anything.”-God

A friend posted about reading the second portion of John 16 this morning, which prompted me to just read John 16, period. And this chapter is amazing. It’s all about the Holy Spirit, guys! It’s so radical. So it starts out with Jesus telling His disciples about how He’s going to ascend to Heaven and they’re like, […]

Physical heart; figurative heart

I’ve been thinking a lot of the parallelism between the physical heart and the figurative heart. Our physical hearts are enclosed in a double-walled sac for protection, to anchor its surrounding structures and prevent blood from overfilling it. When we first meet people our figurative hearts are completely covered, “which protects the heart from any […]